I have to remind myself that God is love. That God is near. That there is Beauty from Ashes. Strength for Fear. Gladness for Sorrow. Peace for Despair.
To live in the moment.
To get through the moments.
My camera reminds me of this when my flesh doesn't.
These things I must endure on a daily basis, these moments of endless flaring, humming, aggressing, seizing are just moments.
Moments of darkness shut off from the world in this chrysalis that is our "Life with Autism, Seizures, & a side of PANDAS" that we must endure while waiting for butterflies.
While waiting for change to come.
And it does come.
Life isn't life without that fact.
My butterflies remind me of that.
Brandon reminds me of that.
A caterpillar crippled by all he must endure.
A beautiful butterfly those moments his body allows him to escape.
There is promise in the waiting.
The beauty of laughter will emerge.
And I will capture it.
However briefly those moments may last.
I will remember those rare moments when I'm forced back to the reality of the everyday moments.
And I will again - wait for the butterfly that will once again emerge.
And soak in it's beauty before it once again flies away.
As you are "waiting for butterflies" in your life --- take time to capture the beauty that is all around us.
